a journal in my life...

_ha hay_that's what a life is... i really need to be mature enough to know myself and this world...

_like I'm so innocent_? ano bah?! ang drama ko naman...

---- it's seam break na--- and i haven't gone home... i miss my home...

_this time h'm alone in the boarding house... hust reading novels to enjoy myself or partly doing internet surfs...

_you know what... i haven't been crying this time and i think i could handle my emotions despite of my longing with my father and remembering the heartaches my mother got in this kind of deadly disease which is Breast cancer_ it started when my sister got this kind of big big problem of her tantrums and not being understood of...

_when i was in highschool, i was in the top most section but the problem is my sister turn myself into a dark path of being me... that's why i'm being aloff and got emo... the family problem become worst at my at most.. that i don't know which path i take... i have tried to got suicide but someone told me to stop that thing... like it was someone who called me not to do...from this struggles in life i learn that everything has a purpose_ either you must go on or not_ it depends upon youself- that's why i qouted this favorite qoute_ "their is no rainbow if their is no rain"- from this strugles, i learned how to have faith and being strong at my deepest.
-i had my true friends which will never leave me in times of troubles. thanks to them they are here to advice me...


_i haven't wrote a letter to my dad_ he sends something but that's not enough_ i sometimes thought if he has another family.. i was not hoping to mend this family coz i know it is really complicated and i am not hoping so...

_i hate wishes_ !

a life is like a flower

FLOWER
Being creative is what fine arts students must have. This flower shows full of colors which represents of being creative and be who I want to be. This is a colorful flower which is a reflection of my life which is colorful as well. That the raindrops may represent disgrace, sorrow, wrath and etc. but the light colors which, I think, represents hope on to my journey while it goes on. The flower also represents beauty from the inside and out of a person. This flower also represents to the one you loved. Some used to pick the petals of the flower and say if he or she loves me or loves me not. There are lot of meaning of this flower. Through the flower you can show that you love the person. you can also show that he or she is important. You can give it to you mother or anybody else.

the flood and the rainbow

in life , we had this kind of disaster that put us into our lowly waters, but after this sorrow and pain we've been into the hope and faith will help us raise up just like the colors rainbow... that symbolizes hope, faith and God (noah's arc).