a journal in my life...

_ha hay_that's what a life is... i really need to be mature enough to know myself and this world...

_like I'm so innocent_? ano bah?! ang drama ko naman...

---- it's seam break na--- and i haven't gone home... i miss my home...

_this time h'm alone in the boarding house... hust reading novels to enjoy myself or partly doing internet surfs...

_you know what... i haven't been crying this time and i think i could handle my emotions despite of my longing with my father and remembering the heartaches my mother got in this kind of deadly disease which is Breast cancer_ it started when my sister got this kind of big big problem of her tantrums and not being understood of...

_when i was in highschool, i was in the top most section but the problem is my sister turn myself into a dark path of being me... that's why i'm being aloff and got emo... the family problem become worst at my at most.. that i don't know which path i take... i have tried to got suicide but someone told me to stop that thing... like it was someone who called me not to do...from this struggles in life i learn that everything has a purpose_ either you must go on or not_ it depends upon youself- that's why i qouted this favorite qoute_ "their is no rainbow if their is no rain"- from this strugles, i learned how to have faith and being strong at my deepest.
-i had my true friends which will never leave me in times of troubles. thanks to them they are here to advice me...


_i haven't wrote a letter to my dad_ he sends something but that's not enough_ i sometimes thought if he has another family.. i was not hoping to mend this family coz i know it is really complicated and i am not hoping so...

_i hate wishes_ !